"Change is constant, transformations are rare" - lidija m Rosati

I never thought loss would become my gateway into the higher realms. What I thought would break me, instead cracked me open. 

In April 2019, after 18 years together, I lost my partner to suicide. My world didn’t just change — it transformed. 

For two years I had walked beside her through the darkest period of her life, and when she passed, everything I thought was “normal” disappeared in an instant.

Her pain was finally over. And in a way, mine was too. 

Because with her passing, I had to face a truth: the life I had known was gone — and I was being asked to step into something entirely new.

At forty-four, I stood at the threshold of an ending that was also a beginning. 

What do you do when life as you know it stops? 

You awaken. You remember who you are. You start again.

Suicide carries a heavy label. People rarely know how to respond or how to be around someone who has survived it. 

Some thought I wasn’t grieving “properly.” Others said I was moving on too fast. 

But the truth is, there’s no proper way. Yes, I carried the loss. But I also carried the light of a new life waiting to be lived.

That loss launched me into a completely different dimension — one that introduced me to parts of myself I’d never met before.

What began as a quiet unraveling became, by late 2019, a full-blown spiritual awakening.

I threw myself into astral travel meditations and Reiki training. But here’s the thing: I wasn’t ready!

My whole system wasn’t prepared for what was coming. And what followed could only be described as a disguised madness. 

We know that real spiritual awakening often rises from trauma’s aftermath. The breakdown becomes the breakthrough. 

But sustaining that kind of opening requires grounding, healing, and integration. I definitely didn’t have that yet.

All the light I was touching only exposed the shadows I hadn’t faced yet.

Suddenly, I was surrounded by new people, a new relationship, and choices that felt exciting in the moment.

But they weren’t aligned with who I truly was. Red flags waved everywhere — sometimes I couldn’t see them, and sometimes I chose not to.

There were some beautiful moments, yes. But very quickly life began to spiral. Old patterns resurfaced. Everything I hadn’t healed started collapsing in on itself.

And then came clarity. For the first time ever, I could finally see myself. 

After years of sacrifice, I finally had the strength to say: No more of this BS.

When that relationship ended, I finally understood: before I could truly heal, I had to be completely undone — stripped to the root of my soul’s correction.

That’s when it hit me: the person I had said goodbye to was actually my greatest teacher.

They held up a mirror to my soul, forcing me to confront wounds I’d been carrying since childhood:

• Learning to love myself
• Learning to hold space without trying to fix or save
• Breaking the cycle of "it doesn't matter, I will be OK"

My only way forward was stillness — complete surrender.

I had to face everything rising inside me and clear whatever was blocking my healing.

With that recognition, something new started emerging. 

For the first time in my life, I started rebuilding myself from the inside out —
not by trying to fix myself or chase achievements, but by learning how to be in relationship with myself.

• I stopped putting everyone else before me
• I started trusting that quiet inner voice. From that trust grew real self-love and self-respect — not as concepts, but as lived experience
• I came to accept my parents for who they are

I let go of people and situations that no longer nourished me.
The compassion remained — but now I live on my own terms, in relationships and friendships built on genuine respect.

To remain grounded, I turned back to what had always guided me: meditations, energy healing, and the spiritual wisdom I’d been exploring since 2019.

I began training again but now in Ascension Coaching. Then, almost by accident, I discovered the ancient spiritual technology of Kabbalah — and suddenly, everything clicked.

As I went deeper, truths began to align:

• Why our souls came here
• The spiritual laws that shape our lives
• How to work with these truths to create transformation — even miracles

Spiritual mysticism and energy healing became my lifelines. They didn’t just rescue me — they reawakened something sacred I’d always carried inside.

Over time, these teachings evolved from being my refuge into becoming my foundation — the roots of everything I live and share today.

Today, through the Decode5D™ Collective, I hold space for those who want to transform — not just to change, but to Ascend and embody practical tools for living and remaining in 5D consciousness.

This journey isn’t only about healing; it’s about remembering who you truly are and awakening into the higher consciousness now unfolding on Earth.

We are transitioning from a 3D world of fear, separation, and limitation into a 5D Earth — a dimension of unity, love, and expanded awareness.

My role is to direct the collective cross that threshold with tools that bridge the spiritual and the practical.
Through guided meditations, energy alchemy, Kabbalah wisdom, and Reiki healing, together we rediscover stillness, clarity, and direction.

The path forward isn’t about forgetting — it’s about releasing victimhood, awakening, ascending, and remembering that everything happens for you, not to you.

For many years, my corporate path shaped me as a Change and Transformation Consultant.
Yet my deepest transformation came not from boardrooms or projects — it came from my own soul’s awakening.

After more than twenty-five years in business, I discovered a truth: real transformation doesn’t begin in strategy meetings — it begins within.

My work as an Energy Master in both Usui and Karuna Reiki, combined with the wisdom of Kabbalah and Ascension training, gave me the confidence to navigate life with 100% certainty and 0% fear.

The suffering I endured opened the door to my true purpose.
The journey was not easy, but every step carried meaning. Every challenge carried light.

I remain deeply grateful to every soul who has walked beside me — shaping me through pain, love, and presence.

Would I change anything?
Not a single thing.

With love and light,

Ivona